Forever and Ever;;64

[Ok, so I was super bummed that Jimmy didn't win last night, but what can I do. He was just kinda all over the place and our defense wasn't that good either. Not a good game overall. Hopefully he will play again soon though, cause I'm sick of seeing that crap face Osgood in net. Haha. Thank god for Conklin, love that guy (: Anyway, here ya go!]

Jimmy and I hadn't talked for days, the way we had always dealt with things. Not the best thing to do, but I really didn't have much of a choice. He was making me so upset.

I was surprised to wake up one morning and find him laying next to me. We hadn't slept together since all of this, childish I know. He was either out on the couch or I was. My stomach was in knots as I laid there, and I figured I was going to get sick soon. I tried my best to push Jimmy of the bed to get to the bathroom, but he didn't move.
"Jimmy! I flicked the side of his head, "I suggest you move unless you want my dinner all over your lap!"
He was now awake, and he gave me a disgusted look before I pushed him off the bed, letting him hit the floor with a 'thud'. I didn't care, I just needed to get to the bathroom.
I ran across the hallway, and sprawled out next to the toilet. It didn't take long before I knew my stomach was completely empty. I sat there for a second though, against the cabinets, just making sure.


Jimmy came in not long after, "Are you okay babe?" He wasn't fully awake, he kept rubbing his eyes. He took the towel of the rack and threw it toward me.
Before I answered I wiped my mouth with the towel, and my forehead which was now covered in sweat. "Yeah, morning sickness. Not that you would care that much or anything."
I got up from my spot of the floor and threw the towel at him, while he didn't say anything.

I made my way out to the kitchen, and dug through the fridge. I found Jimmy's opened blue Gatorade and chugged it down.
"Hey!" He shouted from around the corner, "That was my last one!"
I held it out to him, "You still want it?"
He wrinkled his nose, "That's sick..."
"You asked..." I sat on the couch and held my stomach, making sure I wasn't going to get sick again.


Jimmy sat down next to me and wrapped his arm around me waist, while clicking the TV on.
"It's okay Jim, why don't you go back to ignoring me again...You do it pretty well."
I looked at his face, and he was no longer smiling. "I'm really truly sorry Mads, I acted so dumb... I couldn't be more happy about this, excited actually. I love kids, even though with me being an only child and all. And it had nothing to do with you anyway, this has to do with me and Aaron, I never wanted you in the middle."
"Is that your way of apologizing? Because that's not gunna cut it."
"I promise, I'll make it up to you."
"Better be good."
"Eh, it'll come close."
I smiled and kissed his cheek, at least things were getting a little better. It was way to easy to forgive him.
"Anything you need me to do for you?" He asked.
"No, I'm alot better now, thanks. Just be there for me, or us..." We both stared at my stomach for some time after that.
***



I came home late one night after I had been shopping with Morgan. Laying on the counter top were a dozen white and red roses. I read the note that sat next to it, 'I went out with the guys, and hopefully this helps. I'm so sorry. Love you- Hot Howie ;)'
The end make me laugh, he never called himself that. Attached to the envelope was my favorite pack of gum, something I thought he never noticed. But, he must have been able to smell it on my breath.

Forever and Ever;;63

I burst through the front door of Aaron's house without even knocking. I found Jimmy and Aar standing not a foot away from each other. Aaron's hand were balled up in fists, he had always been a fighter. And I knew at any second he would throw a punch, even at his best friend.


Jimmy took a step toward him and pushed his shoulder, "So it's okay for you not to tell me shit anymore?!"


Aaron's lips were pressed together in a hard line, "Dude, she wasn't even sure yet, I guessed."


"It doesn't matter. You knew." Jimmy's voice was louder than it needed to be, but I guess he was just trying to get his point across.


"This is ridiculous, you better leave before I get any more pissed off." He still stood the way he had when I walked in.


"What are you going to? Punch me? Go ahead."


That was when I had to step in. "Whoa, Whoa, guys stop. This is so dumb. How old are we five?"


"Lay off Madi, this doesn't concern you." Jimmy was talking to be, but kept staring intently at Aaron.


"The hell it doesn't! Look, I started this and I'm sorry. I should have told you as soon as I even considered it, but don't start stuff with him." I pointed toward Aaron, who had finally taken a few steps back.


He shook his head back and forth, having nothing else to say. Before heading toward the door, Jimmy held up his hand in a fist, as if to hit Aaron. "Jimmy stop!" He rolled his eyes and finally left.

Aaron had sat down in front of the TV, but I could tell he wasn't paying alot of attention. I couldn't find the right words to say to him, even though I knew I needed to.

For now, I decided to say nothing at all.

***

I found Jimmy laying on the couch when I got home, acting as if nothing really happened.

"So that's just how your going to act?" I screamed at him,

"What?"

"You don't think you overreacted? Just a little?"

"Ha, no not at all." He shrugged his shoulders.

"You're ridiculous, I can't believe you!"

"Well what the hell do you want me to say? I'm sorry? Is that what you want?" His voice went from talking calmly to the volume of mine. It sent goosebumps down my back.

I turned on my heel when I felt my eyes starting to water. My emotions always got the best of me. Before I went to the bedroom, I whispered, just low enough for him to hear me, "I... I just thought you would be happy. Instead of like.... this."

He said something else but I couldn't make it out. I laid down, and just hoped sleep would come to me, but it wasn't. Instead, I played with the ring on my finger that Jimmy had given me almost a year ago, and wondered if I was doing the right thing. For once in my life, it seemed like things were falling apart, and I wasn't sure if I could ever put it all back together.