Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Forever and Ever;;59

I woke up too early the next morning. But I couldn't help it, excitement was brewing in the pit of my stomach, and I was about to explode. At least that's what I thought it was. I was truthfully exhausted from everything last night, but I couldn't seem to fall back asleep.


Jimmy groaned when I sat up. "Honestly babe, do you ever sleep?" He turned over to face the wall, he obviously knew that answer himself. I laughed and got up to warm up the shower. As that was getting ready I opened up the porch door, trying to see what the weather was like, to see what I should wear today. The hot air immediately hit my face. It had to have been at least 85 degrees out today. So, I settled on a the shortest jean shorts I had, and a new Stanley Cup Champions shirt I had got last night, it was white.



I washed my hair and dried it, pulling all of my hair back into a ponytail, except my bangs. I didn't bother to put much makeup on, it would all be off with the heat and such soon anyways. I put on my Champions hat, and went back out into the living room. Jimmy was just now coming out of the bedroom behind me. He one handily grabbed my waist and pulled me closer to him. "Morning." I smiled, "Gooooood Morning!" I broke free of his grasp, and went out in the living room to plug in the X-box. I searched for NHL 08, but couldn't seem to find it in my collection of games. Then I had remembered that Aaron took it over to his place.


I didn't feel like walking over there to get it, my foot had been bothering me lately, so I called him instead. He answered on the third ring, and sounded excited.
"What up?!"

"Aaron, you had better bring my game back here right now!"

"Uh, I think I gave it to..." He trailed off and there was a long pause.

"I don't care who has it, get it back." I didn't mind that he used my stuff, but I never got it back or he gave it away. I didn't feel like arguing with him, so I just hung up. He would be over soon anyway. Him and Meech were riding with us to the Joe. We were all meeting up there first.
I looked at the clock on my cell phone, and it was 11:45, and we needed to be at the Joe by noon.

It didn't take Jimmy long to get ready, so we were out the door within the next few minutes. Aaron and Derek were already waiting by the car,
***

Jimmy had told me earlier that we would be riding in a Ford Truck instead of a float. So I wasn't surprised to see at least 30 Ford Trucks parked in front of Joe Louis. Jimmy, Derek, Aaron, and I all hoped in the back of a bright red one. We all waved and smiled at fans as we drove down Woodward Avenue. Aaron had one a huge pair on sunglasses. Way to big from his face, and every time I looked at him I couldn't help but laugh.
"Take those damn glasses off before I die!"
"No way! You're just jealous..." He ruffled his hair in the slight breeze and turned away.
Jimmy then put his arm around me and kept smiling at the fans.

By the end of the route I remembered one thing I had forgotten. Suntan lotion. I was definitely going to burn, I always did. Then, we all went on stage for speeches. Alot of the guys didn't have anything planned, so this wouldn't take long. Ken and Mick were the first to start, and they talked about what a great team we were and how we deserved to win more than anyone else, and so on.

The guys went up in pairs, Aaron and Jimmy went up together, said a few things but sat back down quickly. Aaron sat back down next to me, "Your getting really red you know that?"
"Yeah, I burn easily.."
He sniffed the air around him, "Do you smell...bacon?!"
"Oh my god, you are such an ass. I'm not going to smell like bacon!"
"Well, your gunna look like it then!" I shook my head even though it was probably true.
Huds came up to the podium next, and got the crowd cheering "Let's go Red Wings" but what was coming out of his mouth sounded more like "Vet's go Ved Vings." The crowd was cracking up, and so was the team.



[Well, this update was sooner than expected, I've been kinda busy lately. But, I have been in an amazing mood ever since the Wings won the Winter Classic. I was about ready to pull my hair out after the first period though. But it got better so that's good. Anyone watch? Wanna talk about it let me know!]

Thursday, December 25, 2008

Forever and Ever;;58

I finally found Morgan, who had said she was sitting with Val's parents the whole time. I could tell she had been crying- a usual for her.

"Did you see the pictures yet? I had her show them to me." She pointed to a nearby photographer.

I shook my head, "Nope."

"Oh, they are soo funny. I cried though. You and Aaron in the first one, just hilarious. "

I tried to think about back to the first one they took.. but, there were to many thoughts in my head right now, I would just have to wait til' I saw it.



I finally spotted my dad in the corner, and ran over to him.

"Daddy!" I screamed. "We did it." Oh god, here came the tears.

He smiled, to afraid to think he would cry too. It was hard for him to admit, but he was a big baby.

"We can talk later hun, go have some fun."

"Oh, ok..."



Aaron and Brett caught my attention from across the room. Aaron's eyes were halfway closed and they were both slurring their words. "This fuggin rocks!" Brett yelled. He was holding up a bottle, that I'm pretty sure he had finished it off himself. I shook my head, "I think you guys better get dressed. Don't you wanna get home?" I tried my best not to laugh at the confused looks on their faces. They nodded their heads, getting that they understood.



While the guys were changing I sat with Morgan, chatting about the game and how we almost went into overtime for the second game in a row. I tried to blow it off, since it didn't matter now, but we could be going back home right now, without the cup.

My phone vibrated in my pocket, so I took it out and looked at the caller ID. It was Jimmy. I looked around, wondering why he didn't just tell me to come over himself, without calling. I shrugged my shoulders and picked up anyway.
"What?"
I could tell he was laughing slightly, "Where the hell are you? I can't see you anywhere."
"Uh, I'm sitting with Morgan, close to Val's locker you dumbass...." I laughed.
"Oh well, come over here. I can't celebrate with out you!" And then he hung up.
I shook my head, but what he said but a smile on my face. "What is it?" Morgan asked, now standing very close to Val.
"Oh, its Jimmy. I'll be right back."
I pushed through crowds of people, finally making my way over to his locker.

He wrapped his arms tightly around me before I could say anything. "I love you, more than anything in the whole world." He whispered in my ear. I was surprised, not knowing why he needed to tell me this now, but it didn't matter.

I played with his hands, "I love you too..." I smiled, showing all of my teeth. He smiled to match mine. There was nowhere else I would rather be than right here. We stood that way for a few minutes, before Babcock came in and told us it was time to go. Going home made me happy, but I really wanted to stay in this moment forever. Jimmy zipped up his bag and held his hand out to me, "You ready to go?" I shook my head yes, and took his hand. I took one last look at the now trashed locker room, knowing this moment would be with me forever.
***

We all went to Cheli's when we got home last that night. Jimmy and I didn't stay long though, after a few beers we went home. I wanted to stay longer, nights like these don't come often. Tomorrow was the parade and we should be getting at least of few hours of sleep. That wasn't going to come easy though.

Jimmy threw his stuff down next to the love seat and sat on the couch, flipping on the TV. I came and sat next to him, watching a recap of the game on FSN.
"You know," He looked over at me "I still feel like I have some..unneeded energy." I was getting his drift.
"Oh really? Well you should go take a run or something."
He leaned over and kissed me roughly. "Actually, I had something else in mind." I raised my eyebrows, "Oh really, and that is....?" I tried my best to play it cool, and act like I had no idea what he was talking about, even though I knew all to well. "Oh, I think you know." He winked and shot me a mischievous grin.
He placed his hand on my lower back, throwing me over his shoulder like it was nothing. Headed for our bedroom. "Well then, you'll know sooner later."

Sunday, December 21, 2008

Forever and Ever;;57

I was finally able to meet Jimmy's parents. They seemed like amazing people. And you could tell they loved him alot. Hid Dad, Jim was sweet, not very talkative, but he knew his stuff. Jimmy looked just like him. His mom however, was talkative and very sweet. I was just hoping that I made a good impression. I talked to them for a while, explaining myself to them. It was hard to not notice my last name, so of coarse we talked about that.



As they were bringing the cup out I decided I would talk to Aaron's parents. I knew it hurt them to see me with Jimmy, they had always thought Aaron and I were perfect together. But I assured them we were still great friends. We talked for a while, until I stopped paying attention.



Each time the guys lifted the cup, my heart skipped a beat. After losing last year, this made up for it. The smiles on their faces made me amazingly happy. But I couldn't help but glance over at the Pens. Some of them were sitting against the boards and others had already gone in the locker room. I searched along the boards for Sid's 87 and finally found him. We weren't to far away from each other. I was close enough to tell his head was down and he wasn't talking to anyone. I closed my eyes and sighed, I was going to have to find something to say to him.



I made my way over to him as best as I could, and sat down next to him. He glanced up at me quickly, then back down.

"You played really great Sid.."

He didn't say anything. "You practically beat us there in the end.." I was trying to get him to say something, anything. But he didn't. So I sat there, and I waited.



"You seriously don't know how it feels to lose anything do you?" He finally said. I had never seen that look on his face before. And honestly, it scared me. But I wasn't afraid to say what I felt.

"You know Sid. I've lost alot."

"Yeah right. Something that meant everything to you? Something you worked so hard for? I don't think so.."

"No, but I've watched my dad come so close to winning it so many times. You don't even know, these guys are my family. I cried for days last year when we came so close. Don't act like you know shit about me, you seriously don't."

He looked at me like I was crazy. But he obviously didn't know anything about me. I was pissed.

"Thanks for ruining my night by being an ass. I know your upset, but I was just trying to help."

"I'm-" I stood up and walked away. I had better things to do than argue with him. I made it back to Jimmy's parents just before he lifted the cup. It was his first, so that made it special.

A little later we headed into the locker room. Val and Kronner were holding up a copy of the Detroit Free Press. The front of it read "CHAMPIONS" I quickly read through it, just getting the main topics. I guess back home the Joe was packed. Fans went crazy when they watched us win on the Jumbo Tron. I was definitely ready to get back to Detroit and celebrate. But there was still a little bit of celebrating to do here, and I wasn't going to hold back.

Friday, December 12, 2008

Forever and Ever;56

The first period was just....okay. We were winning 1-0 by a wrist shot from Rafalski, We could have been doing better. We all headed back into the locker room. I talked to Jimmy about nothing in particular, he wasn't talkative anyway. I noticed his hand shaking, god was he nervous. I looked at him, and he finally met my gaze. I smiled and pecked his lips. He flinched away, as I noticed I has accidentally bit his bottom lip. I looked surprised, "What was that for?" I laughed, "I'm sorry. I didn't mean to." He still stared at me, expecting me to say something more. I moved around in my seat like a little kid, and it made him laugh. "I guess I'm just really nervous. "


He shook his head, "Yeah me too."


"I could tell." I pointed to his hand, which was still shaking.


I kissed him one more time, this time managing not to bite his lip. "Ew PDA!" Aaron screeched as he walked past. I punched his in the shoulder.





This was one of the times I missed Stevie the most. He always had something to say at this time. As where Nick was more of a quiet guy and kept to himself. But that was a whole different story, and it wasn't time for that anyway.





I guess I was caught up in my own thoughts because everyone was filing out the door for the second period before I knew it. I quickly got up and ran out behind them. When the Pens stepped back onto the fresh ice, their fans went crazy. The place was packed, I couldn't fine one empty seat even if I tried. And then there was our fans. Who had came all the way from Detroit. There was a few of them, scattered around in different spots. I let the guys warm up while I talked to the press. They wanted to know everything, but I told them practically nothing. I didn't even know why they talked to me anymore, but I found it amusing.





Eight minutes into the period Val scored a sweet backhand from Sammy and Kronwall. We were doing good... for now. The game was getting more intense as time ticked away. Most of the guys were exhausted already, I sat there wishing I could do something. We took one to many penalties and the Penguins took advantage of that. I groaned when Malkins slap shot when in the back of the net. Sidney looked amazingly happy when he skated past me, giving me a small smile. I looked away, acting like I didn't see him. And that was all for the second period.

I kept trying to get ahold of Morgan, I wasn't sure where she was but I knew she had came on the trip. She wouldn't have missed this game for anything. I kept calling her phone over and over again, but she never answered. She probably couldn't hear it over all the noise.

Into the third Ozzies goal tending was making me nervous. He was doing well... for now. I always thought he cracked under pressure but I would never say that to him. We were way ahead in shots, and the Pens seemed to be lagging. Our guys were slowing down also, but I tried my best to keep them going. I wasn't sure if it was really helping, but whatever. Hank scored not long after Babs told the guys to "Move their asses"



Time ticked away as the period was going by fast, there hadn't been any penalties yet. Jimmy kept counting face offs, which we were also ahead in. My heart was pumping faster as there was only two minutes left in the period, but the refs called a penalty on Huds "Hooking", yeah right. Now we had to pull this off. Babcock told the guys his plans and sent them back out. I guess his talk didn't help much. Hossa scored not long after on a slap shot. I kept trying to tell myself it was okay.

The last forty seconds were chaotic, we needed to clear the puck- and now. Hossa and Sid came speeding towards the net. Hossa tried to back hand it in, Ozzie came out as far as he could and went to stop it with his arm. The whole time by heart didn't beat once. It skitted across the line just as time expired. I could tell that it wasn't a goal. My jaw dropped and the final buzzer rang.

Ozzie shook off his equipment as all the guys jumped on top of him. I stood by the bench, letting them have their moment. Aaron came up from behind me and put a Stanley Cup Champions hat on my head, "You're part of this team to you know."
"I know, but I can't really skate over there too well with a cast on, so I'll just wait."
He looked at me like I was crazy, and picked me up like it was nothing. He skated over and put me down next to Jimmy, who was surrounded by his friends and family. I looked up at him, a huge smile on my face. I stood on my toes and kissed him like crazy, and everything around us seemed like a blur.

Sunday, November 23, 2008

Forever and Ever;;55

I took the elevator back up to the our floor. I hoped that they all weren't back yet. No such luck. When I stepped of the elevator, there was one of the worst possible people. Aaron. He quickly saw me and came over. I hid the sweatshirt behind me and tried my best to act normal.


"Where are the guys?" I asked him.


"Downstairs at the arcade, where have you been?"


"Oh, I was just outside." I searched for my room key in my back pocket.


"What do you have there?" He pointed to the hoodie.


I heard the elevator ding, but didn't pay much attention until I felt someone tugging at my hands. Aaron mouthed something, so I turned around. Meech. He pulled the hoodie out of my hands and ran down the hallway, I ran after him and Aaron followed. Be ran down tons of rooms, and the farther we ran, the more out of breath I got. I couldn't believe I was even running, my cast wasn't giving me any problem. It felt like it was back to normal. It must have been healing well. We came up to a turn, Derek whipped right around it, as I did. I heard a 'thud' but didn't bother to look back.


I was gaining on him, a picked up my pace and was able to get ahold of his shirt. He looked down, and I jumped on his back. He bent far over to I fell right off of him. I let out a small scream before hitting the floor. That one did hurt my foot. Sharp pain started in my calve and worked its way down to my foot. "Shit." I said. "Whoa, I'm sorry."


"It's alright, I'm fine." Derek sat down next to me, both of us breathing heavily. He started to unfold the sweatshirt.


"Whats the big deal, it's just a..." He stopped and looked at me. "Oh, that's why."


I shook my head, I almost felt ashamed. He tossed it on my lap and stared at me, waiting for me to say something.


"It's not mine. It's Sidney's. He wouldn't let me wear my shirt around Pittsburgh."


"Why were you with Sidney? Does Jimmy know?"


I shook me head again. "Lunch and no.."


We both sighed at the exact same time, "I didn't want it. He insisted I keep it. I don't like the Pens one bit. I'm going to tell Jimmy about us being friends, just right now is not the right time."


"I understand. It will be our little secret." He winked.


"Thanks dude, I appreciate it. I'll talk to him though."


"Good." I didn't usually talk to Meecher like this. It was nice though.


I sat up and tried not to put pressure on my foot. Derek cringed, "That's not good."


"I know, I shouldn't have been running."


I tried to help him off the floor but groaned, "You're too heavy!"


He flashed me his guns, "It's all muscle baby!" We walked back to the room together, just now realizing we lost Aaron on the way.


"When did we lose Aaron?"


"Didn't you hear that thud? We lost him at the first turn." We laughed. "That's hilarious!"


I finally made it back to my room, we ran around the whole hotel, I hurried in the door, making sure that Jimmy wasn't in the room. I tucked the hoodie in the very bottom of my suitcase, hoping Jimmy wouldn't find it til' we talked.


Now, I was off to find the guys. They were in the exact same spot Aaron said they were. The arcade. All of the guys were surrounding the Air Hockey table. I laughed, just like them. Jimmy spotted me and came over, putting his arm around me. "I was looking for you. Aaron said you were chasing Derrick around. "Yeah.." I flinched as I put to much weight on my foot. "Whoa babe, you shouldn't be running around."


"Yeah I know. I'll be fine though." I walked over to the table and payed more attention to the game. It was my dad against Draps. They took it very seriously. Whoever lost probably had to sit in the back by the toliets on the way home, or something like that. Draps was up by two goals, and there was only 1:02 left in the game. Draps slammed the disc making my dad back out of the way. "Ding!" Draps scored, sealing the deal.


A "Ohhhhh!" came from all of us and we all piled on Kris. Making him fall. I decided I would join in. I saw a flash from someones camera, it was going to be a good picture.

***

Before I knew it, it was game time. I sat in the away locker room with the rest of the guys. They all did their little quirks that they did before most games. I looked around, knowing this was it. We had been waiting for this all season. I almost wanted to be out on the ice with them, but I knew that wasn't possible. We had been waiting for this moment all year. I wanted to take it all in.

I scanned the room for Aaron. And finally found him next to the trainer. I felt like I should talk to him before he played, it usually helped.

"Aar, you better kick some ass out there tonight, or I'll be kicking yours!" I told him as I walked over.

"Uhm I'm thinking you won't have to worry about that."

We walked out to the bench, I stood next to Jimmy who was in charge of counting face offs. I placed my hand over my heart for the national anthem. I was just glad I didn't have to hear Karren Newman's voice anymore this year. Before I knew it, the first period was underway.



Friday, November 14, 2008

Forever and Ever;;54

I sat across from Ozzie on the plane, the table in between us covered with playing cards. Pavel sat to my right. Somehow they had gotten me to join in on a game of Go Fish. "You have five?" Pav asked Ozzie in his strong Russian accent. "Nope." Ozzie replied.

He threw down his cards and yelled at Ozzie, "You cheat!" Then stomped of to the back of the plane. We looked at each other for a second, then burst out laughing. Anyone who knows the game, knows you really can't 'cheat'.



By the time we were done laughing, I had tears in my eyes. I walked back to where I was sitting with Jimmy. And he looked concerned. "Why are you crying?"

"It's a good cry. Promise." He nodded and looked out with window once again.

I felt around for my phone in my pocket, which had been vibrating for about five minutes. The only person I knew of who would be calling or texting was Sidney, and I was right.

"Hey"

"Hello Sidney"

"When are you landing?"

"About 5, I think. Why?"

"I was wondering if we could meet up, get dinner or something.

"Sidney, if people on this plane knew that I was talking to you right now, they would kill me."

"Was that a yes?"

"You have a game tonight, there's no time."

"Are you forgetting I eat before game."

I sighed. "I'll call you when we get to the hotel."

"Ok."

***

When we landed in Pittsburgh it was 4:45. And when we got to the Marriot it was just past five. I called Sidney outside, not really wanted anyone to know I was talking to him before such a big game. Most of the guys were going someplace else to eat, but I "didn't feel good" and decided I would stay behind. Once I knew everyone was gone, I took out my phone and dialed Sidney's number.
"Where are you?" Was the first think he asked.
"Marriot."
"Ok, I'll be there in a few."
That was probably the shortest conversation I had ever had with him. Something was up, because he always loved to talk to me.

I walked out front, to see Sidney' Range Rover to my left. I checked to make sure that none of the guys were around, and the walked over to his car.

He gave me a one handed hug when I slid into the black leather seat.
"I missed you." He said with a smile.
"I missed you too?" I replied, awkwardly.
"I have the perfect place to eat, you'll love it."
I smiled slightly, "That's good."

On the radio I could hear people talking about tonight's game.
Sidney switched it off quickly, "Sorry."
I didn't say anything. I just looked out the window and stared at all the Pens fans walking the streets. This town loved their team. I figured that maybe today was not a good day to wear my Wings shirt.


We pulled up to some restaurant I had never heard of before.Sidney searched around in the backseat. I pulled out a sweatshirt with a Pens logo on it, and threw it in my lap. I looked at him, not sure what he was doing.
"Trust me, you don't want to go in there wearing that." He said, referring to my shirt.
I laughed, "Thanks."

We sat neer the back, trying not to draw alot of attention, but it didn't really work. Not even five minutes into the meal, a swam of girls spotted him. They got there autographs, pictures, hugs, whatever floated their boat. I sat there, kind of awkwardly, uncomfortable in this sweatshirt, as stupid as it may sound.
I played with the cuffs of the sweatshirt, trying to act like I didn't care, even if I did.
"I'm sorry about that." Sidney said, bringing me out of my thoughts.
"It's fine.."
I noticed his hands were shaking somewhat, he must have been nervous.
"Wow Sidney.."
He looked down at his hands, then placed him in his lap, not saying anything.
"I wouldn't know what you go through everyday Sid, It doesn't make me mad. I'm around it all the time."
"People expect so much out of me... they're expecting me to lead this team to the cup tonight. The pressure is crazy."
"Look around Sidney! People love you. I love you. In a friend way of course. If people love you as much as they say, they will understand Your young, and your amazing athlete. Your gunna get there. If it's tonight or not, I'm not sure."
I could tell he was listening to me. He took me seriously.
"Hey, you've made me a Pens fan... sort of?"
He laughed, "Awesome"

I looked down at my phone. It it was getting closer to game time. Sidney paid for the meal, the the gentlemen I knew he was, and we went back to the hotel.
He pulled up close to the doors, "You better hurry up, I don't want to start any problems." He laughed.
"There won't be any, they know I'm friends with you, sort of."
I began to take of his sweatshirt, until he stopped me.
"Keep it.. for now. Your coming to a Pens game soon, right?"
"Sometime next season. Sure"
"Promise?"
"I promise."
This time he gave me a full hug and kissed my cheek.
"Good luck tonight Sid. Do your best."
"I will."
I closed the car door and watched his drive away.
I looked around, making sure the coast was clear, and pulled the sweatshirt off. I would wear it sooner or later, but definitely not now.
*Ok, just an FYI, if your not understanding the story.
SHE'S NOT CHEATING ON JIMMY IN ANYWAY. Noooo. Don't feel bad for him, she'll be telling him soon. You'll have to see how he takes it. I love my Jimmy wayy to much to do that to him in the story.
She's not falling for Sidney. Nor is she blowing her own team off.
She's trying to become better friends with Sid and work things out.
She's going around secretly because some of the guys might be mad if they knew, seeing that they are facing them in the final game.
She's not becoming a major Pen's fan or any of that jazz.
She's not sneaking around really, just not sure how the team would take it.
Shes not breaking things off with Jimmy in anyway. The story is about the two of them, I'm just trying to make it interesting. No feeling bad for Jimmy, he'll understand about them being friends ;)
Questions? Just let meh know, Thankss*

Saturday, November 1, 2008

Forever and Ever;;53

I sat down at the table, flipping through my menu. I didn't really have an appetite, but thought I should order anyway. Jimmy flipped through his menu, I could tell he was annoyed. Finally he looked up, but I looked away.


"What's going on?" He asked.


I shrugged my shoulders, "I don't know, I don't usually feel this way."


I played with my fingers, "Tell me."


He would get it out of me like he usually did, "You're going to think it's stupid."


"No I won't."


"Well...it's just that hockey season is going to be over and I just get so weird about it. It's childish, so just forget we even talked about it."


"That's not stupid at all. But were going to have all summer with the cup, so it will


go by super fast. Promise."


I laughed, "Yeah hopefully."


"Oh and were going to New York to see my parents, at least once."


"As long as you promise we can go to Cambridge and visit my family."

"Of coarse."





Jimmy looked at his watch, we needed to be at the Detroit Metro at 2:30. It was getting close to one. Jimmy threw down thirty dollars on the table and we went back out to the car.


"We better not miss this flight Jimmy, or I'm going to kill you."


"It's not my fault if we miss it, your the one PSMing."


"Am not!"


"Are too!" He mimicked my voice.


I shook my head, "Drive faster!"


***


I sat down by Morgan on Red Bird II, thankfully Jimmy and I made it to the airport on time. Not thanks to me. It took me forever to limp around with my cast. I had practically given up on my crutches, they slowed me down.



I looked around the plane, searching for my dad. He was sitting up front, ne'er Cleary. Pav tripped me as I walked down the isle. I laughed and punched him in the shoulder.

"Pops!" I yelled, trying to get his attention. He turned around, "Yeah?'

"When are mom and El coming?"

"Later tonight, might want to check with her though."

I shook my head, and made my way back to my seat, making sure not to trip over Pavel's foot this time.

***

The plane ride went faster than usual, thanks to Morgan being there with me. We were back in Pittsburgh in no time. Thoughts of the game that brought us back here made my stomach flip. So close yet so far. I was actually pissed at Ozzie about it. He could have had that goal. But me being pissed at Ozzie wasn't going to make me any better at it. So I needed to get over it and move on. I tried to put happy thoughts in my head, like drinking out of the cup for the 3rd time. (: